Friday, November 28, 2008

Something to be thankful for ...

Being given a large amount of time and a wonderful and beautiful source of inspiration, I have managed to create some art for me. As I manage to stave off emotions that I wish and hope would just go away, it feels good to be able to use my mind, much like Johnan Vasquez' character, Devi, from "I Feel Sick." I sometimes feel like my mind is going to waste and its being devoured by something otherworldly for its own devious purposes in its state of uselessness. I hate that feeling. It feel great to be able to break away from that monotonous state and actually do something creative and beautiful and freeing.

Blossoms
Blossoms

Gift For Leia
Gift For Leia

Ironically, I never thought I would have done faery art. Not that I don't enjoy faery-lore or the like. Quite the opposite, actually. Just, most of the artwork I create, is usually either comic art, or something slightly more "psychological" or something with a deeper or more sentimental meaning. Although, my muse did have a hand in the subject matter used with these two works of art. So, yeah, there is something a bit more personal and possibly sentimental about these two works. What I do appreciate most about creating these works is the fact that a very long dry spell has been broken. If not for the wonderful artists that helped by contributing the different elements used in these works and deviant art community we all belong to, and my muse, my inspiration, my personal distraction and love, Leia, I might very well still be in this dry spell, letting my personal demons get the best of me, taking away what creativity that I have left in this over-dramatic, self-deprecating mind of mine. And yes, I exaggerate, for a reason. I do tend to be over-dramatic at times, and, lets face it, if I begin to take myself to seriously, I might as well be boring. Who wants to be boring?

And, as usual, I have gone off on yet another tangent that has strayed me from my point. Despite my personal demons, and realizations about me and where I am and where I really want to be, I have so much to be thankful for: my creative, stubborn, fighting spirit, my art and music, and most particularly, those who have stood by me, especially when I needed them, and didn't want them, more so when I wanted them and didn't really need them. You all rock! So much of who I discovered that I am, and continue to do so, is due in part to you, and I will forever be grateful for that.

Izzy